My kids came home yesterday.
What a wonderful sound to hear the front door open, to see their backpacks and hearts brimming with stories about their day. Their presence a gift on this chilly afternoon.
At dinner, we traded ‘love grams’ around the table, sharing the beauty we see in each other–the ways we bring joy to our home. (We also handled sibling conflict, attitude, and fussy tots so don’t think too highly of us. Carry on.)
An hour later, we learned that several kids in our country didn’t come home from school. Several parents didn’t get to hear stories from their kids yesterday. Like those in Parkland, FL–my beloved home state–where 17 students left for school and never returned to their families. More victims of another school rampage. On Ash Wednesday.
In the aftermath of this horrific tragedy, I huddled a little closer to my kids this morning. We talked again about their ALICE training at school, about the importance of listening to their teachers, about how to recognize lonely/sad/angry students, and about what to do when they hear the ‘pop-pop-pop’ in a public venue.
My 10 year-old said, “Mrs. E promised us that she’d get us all out first.” I swallowed a lump. What our teachers must now consider between math and reading, science and social studies, is a sad commentary on the state of our country. Instead of putting our collective energy into preventing these acts of violence, we’ve heaped the responsibility onto the potential victims by telling them when to hide and when to run from the horror.
My 8 year-old, voice quivering, said, “Mom, I’m scared. What if a shooter comes in today?” I could offer no guarantees for his safety. I acknowledged his fears and we read again the promises in Scripture that Jesus is with us—that we can always trust Him, especially when we’re afraid.
I never expected I’d have to assure my kids that God is with them as they run for cover, dodging bullets with their classmates.
And I would be naive to think our small town is exempt from this horror.
So what do we do?
Pray. Absolutely. Always. As a person of faith, I pray for God to comfort the Parkland families in their deep sorrow this morning. I grieve with them and for them and for that beautiful community in south Florida. I pray for the teachers and faculty, for law enforcement and first responders, the counselors offering emotional and mental support. I pray for wisdom and hope and for shattered hearts to mend.
I pray for protection over our schools–as I’m sure parents in Sandy Hook and Columbine and Parkland prayed. As I’m sure parents–in the other 18 school shootings in just 45 days this year–have prayed.
But we must also act. How?
How about a few gun policy changes? God doesn’t just use prayer–He uses policy. Good gun laws in place can help protect others. I realize this is not the only solution but it seems like a reasonable, proactive place to start.
Mass shootings are distinctly an American issue—seemingly allowed by Congress and the NRA and those who make money off of gun distribution. Someone, please tell me, what are civilians doing with AR-15s? In every mass school shooting in the past several years, this weapon has been involved. Why are they allowed in the hands of civilians? What purpose to they serve?
It’s no secret that America has a gun obsession. But I think America has a heart problem, too. Maybe our hearts long for weapons we don’t really need. Maybe we’re more concerned with control and rights and the feeling of power we get when we possess a rifle of this sort–in the name of self-protection.
Maybe we don’t need to set aside our ‘right to bear arms’ but maybe we need to set aside our ‘right to bear those kinds of arms’. Like assault rifles designed to kill as efficiently as possible. Is there no better way to spend our money? Education? Health care? Pro-life endeavors? Poverty?
If we’re to model the ways of Jesus and prove we value life, then it’s past time we lay down our right to power like He did. Isn’t that what love does? It sacrifices its own rights for the sake of another.
I’m beginning to believe we love our rights—our guns and the warped sense of power they give us–more than we love our children.
For those looking to act, here are two organizations you can check out:
Dave Larson says
Argghhh…lost wifi connection here in the Philippines..think my previous comment didn’t go out…so will repeat it:
Moving, Katie.
One of ur best blogs that I’ve read.
Gonna share on my timeline.
Blessings,
Dave
Katie says
Thanks, Dave. I appreciate your encouragement. Let the online firestorm begin…
Moriah says
My heart has been so heavy trying to process this with everything else in my life this week.
Still trying to calm the panic that comes with the thought of potentially facing a shooting in the school I work in, and the special children in our classroom that don’t have the same safety awareness as others. Oh, all of the aching hearts.
Steckley Lee says
Great post Katie! It is unbelievable that we are still living this.
Katie says
Thank you all for responding. I know the solutions to this tragic problem are not easy or simple but I do think we (*Christian* Americans, especially) need to evaluate our hearts, spend time at home working through issues with our families, and figure out a moderate perspective with our country’s leadership that will help ensure the safety of our schools–and other public venues.
Carol Long says
I’m praying that as the anger subsides and clear thinking returns, that some real meaningful progress will be made towards fixing this. Removing assault weapons from the citizenry, people who know of someone with a mental problem and a gun getting involved in separating the two. Why did those who knew of this boy’s attitude and mind set not do more ? Putting the FBI back to work on what they are trained to do, so perhaps they will have time to respond to several reports about the same troubled boy with a gun. Congress getting priorities in order, and removing all pork from any bills to stop the delays. Great job, Kate